my brain is swimming with things like registries and dates and schedules and logistics. i am a mild control freak (which is an understatement), so the idea of my entire life being thrown upside down by some small creature i can only for now abstractly imagine kind of throws me for a loop some days.

but then nic says things like this and it tugs me out of the tornado of my mind into reality. we are growing a small human and my only real hope is to help cultivate a loving, honest, reflective human to populate the world with good.